Thursday, October 22, 2009, 10:26 PM
i fucking feel useless now.i bloody hell look hideous.
i get a shock when i look into the mirror.
i sometimes even wonder if i didn't go for that recce.
none of these will happen.
but i should not blame it on the recce.
should blame on my own carelessness.
like why me?
forever asking the same thing when unfortunate things happen to me.
how i hated my looks now.
its just demoralising.
but through this experience,i found out that i have wonderful friends in odac
they seriously took great care of me.not leaving me there to rot.
they helped me,they cared for me.
have been thinking of this matter for a long time.
if i were to appear in front of him with my looks now,what will his reaction be.
i have visions that were positive.
but i think it will be the shock of his life.
he may just run for help!
but overall,thanks a million to those who help me that day!
love you all!