Monday, June 22, 2009, 12:26 AM
ppl says that personnal thoughts should be kept to urself.well,since my blog..
no one will read.i guess..its kinda a personal blog.
突然觉得自己好傻，好傻。
不知道自己现在是什么，不知如何是好。
难道他说得都对，我所做的都错了。
也许，使我的天真或是我的愚蠢。
被我所说的“爱”给遮住了。
傻得不知去向，不知道该用什么方式麻醉自己。
没有这种感觉过。
我真的好想好想，回到从前。
但我也知道，是不可能的。
我一直在怀疑，怀疑每一件他做的事，说的话，是否真心。
怀疑成了疑心。一发不可收拾。
i am not trying to save this relationship
cos,it takes 2 hands to clap.
if u chose to give up.
i guess..i should to.
no point trying to fight for something that has changed his/her heart
giving up is very easy
buut trying hard is very difficult
changing was said to be easy for u.
i use to believe stupidily,if there is love,there is hope.
just being so firm on myself i love him,so there was hope.
i tried changing my temper.bit by bit.
now,this situation is alr liddat.
i also cant say anything.
u call the shots this time
i tried being more reasonable.
have ur ever felt lonely before.
if u din,dun try.
its terrible.
being all alone in a house.
i had to not think of things.
i have nothing to do.
but..play maple.
maple...triggers some memories..
have ur ever felt a heartache before?
i bet no one did before.
u will feel like crying any moment,feel like finding something else to do..
and becos u are lonely,no one will care
when no one care,u can cry all u want.
andd think all u wan,and then the memories u actually had,was gone
u will then feel the heartache
how i wish,i can throw away all the memories we had together...
how to..
its easier said than done..
i also understand the meaning of bleeding love.
i guess,its love til u bleed.
both mentally and physically.