Thursday, May 28, 2009, 3:53 AM
lingfang said we should really talk.should we?
how to?
who will start?
i somehow feel there will not be anything coming out,if u decides to leave halfway?
when i finally start to feel happy about some little things.
it vanish again.
the happiness,slight and small little one.
to feel happy about.
i've tried to be happy.
like i kept emphasizing..i want to be happy.
and he said he needed me?
i felt:from the looks of it,he dun look like u needed me.
somehow,i just feel,i am gonna fall into another trap.
but, i tot i was just being frank abt it.
i said,if i look like i am angry.
i AM be angry.
until,i learnt a skill.
to act like nothing happen..
be as happy as before.
maybe i wun feel as miserable.
i saw u can be like as happy as before and care nth.
i tot i should do that too.
i felt that.
its kind of funnaye,to say,i forgot how to smile ever since i was gone.
hehe,i think u forgot the smiling and remember how to laugh.
its contradicting.
since u can laugh,i guess u are fine.
i have learn to look on the surface of the matter.
if u look happy,u are..
i guess it is true.
i will believe my eyes.
i will show u the emotions i have now.
i wan to be happy,i definately will!
talked to jingwen in class..
she said many things.i felt the good points she said..,is wad i admire abt him.
but i did not know how to appreciate it.
i finally understand this saying:people learn to cherish things until they lose it.
maybe that is wad i am feeling now.
i will think abt the times we had,then question myself.
abt numerous things.
but somehow.
feel that i should move on already.
i should be happy.
i guess its not worth doing so much,getting angry and stuff.
regret is the only thing i could think of right now.
i guess,i will just let go.